It was the first time I saw her speaking with someone. She was on the other side of the library hall with one of my friend. They shared a laughter as I approach there, and it appeared like they enjoyed their moment. I greeted my friend and said “Hi” to the Miss. I realized that I will get late to catch the bus so I gave a quick hug to my friend and said goodbye to the Miss. 🙂

The next day, I was sitting on a couch in the corridor, waiting for my next class. There she came, walking in my direction. Her class was next to my class, so she sits and waits. “Hi” I greeted her. She said nothing. :/ Maybe she didn’t hear it. I stood up and moved to my class as my professor entered the classroom. 🤓

I didn’t really know, “If she heard and ignored me, or didn’t she heard my salutation?” I asked myself. 🤔
The class got over. It was an interesting session, but I was very tired. Heading towards the bus station, I saw her walking to-and-fro the bus stop. “So she also takes the bus?” I asked myself. Maybe this time, she will hear my salutation. When I reached the bus stop, I said in a loud voice “Good Afternoon”. Now it was confirmed, I know she won’t reply. 😳

Two weeks later, I was in the Math center, helping junior students with their homework. She came, passed by, and sat down. Miss was really silent. I was able to notice she had a problem, she needed help, but she won’t call the Math tutor. Then she raises her hand and made a sign to call the tutor. Why can’t she just say “Excuse me, sir?” I asked myself. Here my friend came, she greeted me and I greet her back. 🙂

“Can you please help my friend?” my friend asks.
“Sure, I will.” I replied.
“Thanks, and please be patient with her; she is deaf.” 😐

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When Asked

When asked,
“How you can smile all day long?”

He replied,
because I have nights
with full of memories
to cry for.” 😐

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Blatant Disregard

He is someone
who still text her
when She hasn’t replied for hours.

He watches her
giving other people attention
while She ignore’s him.

He just handles all the bullshit
She throws at him
and in the end
He still loves her. 🙂

How are you??

Hey, How are you??” What will you reply to this innocent question? Your answer will be, I am Fine! or simply, I’m ok! or will you really come out with the real actual answer.

We always give the same reply “I’m Fine” because I think it’s a heavy question with a rote answer. The reply is actually a lie. If  you ask me the same question “How are you?” my reply will be “Fine“. Even on the days I am not Fine. On the days when the pain is unbearable. On days when I ask questions like “what if”. On days I am not feeling good enough.

Sometimes when someone who is close to you asks the same question, you try not to respond in the usual fashion, but something inside you holds it back. In actual, we hide our current feelings with words which sounds as if we are the most happiest person. And I also feel like its hard to open up when you are uncomfortable with something which is not letting the actual feelings to flow.

There are two strong reason why we give the default response to the question.

One reason is because fine has become the quick generic response to the question, “How are you today?”  But how are you really doing?  Are you truly “all right” as the definition of fine implies?

It has become a tag line for our lives “I’m fine”.  For most people, when someone asks them how they are, they don’t give it much thought and simply reply with the fastest, easiest answer.  This is what they are also doing in their lives as well.

The other reason we may be using those words is to hide how we are truly feeling. When we say, “I’m fine” we may not want to burden the other person or we may just not want to deal with the feelings ourselves.

If you are not wanting to deal with your own emotions, it’s time to stop being a victim. It’s time to stop hiding in the sand. The sooner you step into what you are truly feeling, the faster you can step out of those feelings! I know its not a easy thing to do.

It’s time to shake it up! Stop saying you are fine, now come up with what you’re really feeling.